Expression of inner reflections

Con muchas ideas pero insegura about sharing them. I can find the confidence to write everything I think because I feel very conscious and judge. The fear of sounding dumb prevents me from sharing feelings, thoughts, and also from acting on those thoughts. This is a trend in my life, not acting, not being congruent with my thoughts. I find it hard to express myself because of the fear that others will judge me. As if I was the center of their conversations, or lives; I know that i'm not that important, but I cannot stop feeling vulnerable and alone at times. There are so many people that I miss, so many emotions that I haven't express and so many regrets. Recently I thinking about my life I noticed that most of it involves me thinking about my past.

Living in the past is part of my present. My present is composed of doing thing that I enjoyed, being afraid of change, doing things for others and trying to create a future. That future that seems unclear because I haven't found a reason to create a clear and bright picture of it. Finding those reasons to live the present without regretting my past will help me look at a promising future. For now I will live this moment to moment emotions, decisions, changes, thoughts and I will continue to look at my past for reasons to change and grow.

Update...

Al igual que las tendencias technologicas, me voy moviendo atravez de los differentes medios de communicacion en la web. Esto es la razon por la cual no he hecho ningun update en este sitio. Las incognitas a lo que ha pasado en mi vida en este tiempo que he estado ausente de mi blog, pueden ser vistas en mi pagina de HI5 o en mi account de twitter. Informacion la cual no creo sea de mucha utilidad para nadie, pero pues me hago a la loca idea de que alomejor hay alguien a quien le interese saber sobre mi en este universo cibernetico.

See you soon (days, months, or years), but see you