Expression of inner reflections

Con muchas ideas pero insegura about sharing them. I can find the confidence to write everything I think because I feel very conscious and judge. The fear of sounding dumb prevents me from sharing feelings, thoughts, and also from acting on those thoughts. This is a trend in my life, not acting, not being congruent with my thoughts. I find it hard to express myself because of the fear that others will judge me. As if I was the center of their conversations, or lives; I know that i'm not that important, but I cannot stop feeling vulnerable and alone at times. There are so many people that I miss, so many emotions that I haven't express and so many regrets. Recently I thinking about my life I noticed that most of it involves me thinking about my past.

Living in the past is part of my present. My present is composed of doing thing that I enjoyed, being afraid of change, doing things for others and trying to create a future. That future that seems unclear because I haven't found a reason to create a clear and bright picture of it. Finding those reasons to live the present without regretting my past will help me look at a promising future. For now I will live this moment to moment emotions, decisions, changes, thoughts and I will continue to look at my past for reasons to change and grow.